Wearing Red Shoes

All I ever post...

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 22:38:15 GMT

are memes. I really need to think some original thoughts and write them down and make an actual post sometime, but meanwhile, a meme from brumeux77 :

RULE 1: You can only say ~~Guilty or Innocent.~~ Yes or no will do for me!
RULE 2: You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone asks! (And even then you may decline to elaborate.)

Asked someone to marry you? no
Kissed one of your Facebook friends? yes
Danced on a table in a bar? yes
Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? yes
Kissed someone of the same sex? yes
Kissed a picture? yes
Slept in until 5 PM? no
Fallen asleep at work/school? no
Held a snake? yes
Been suspended from school? no
Worked at a fast food restaurant? no and got fired? no
Done something you regret? yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? no
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no
Kissed in the rain? yes
Sat on a roof top? yes
Kissed someone you shouldn’t? yes
Sung in the shower? yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? sort of
Shaved your head? no
Slept naked? yes
Had a boxing membership? no (wtf?)
Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? yes
Been in a band? lol yes
Shot a gun? no.
Donated blood? yes
Eaten alligator meat? no (crocodile, though)
Eaten cheesecake? yes
Kept loving someone you shouldn’t? yes
Had a tattoo? no. :(
Liked someone, but will never tell who? no
Been too honest? yes
Ruined a surprise? yes
Eaten in a restaurant and gotten really bloated so that you couldn’t walk afterward? no
Erased someone in your friends list? yes
Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? yes
Joined a pageant? no
Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? yes
Had communication w/ your ex? yes
Gotten totally drunk one night when you had an important test the next morning? no
Gotten totally angry that you cried so hard? yes
Tried to stay away from someone for their own good? no
Thought about suicide? yes
Thought about murder? no
How about Mass Murder? no
Tried illegal drugs? no
Ridden in a stranger’s vehicle? no
Stalked someone? yes ;-)
Been so drunk that you forgot things that happened while you were intoxicated? yes

Handwriting, by request....

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 11:02:06 GMT

Tagged by mrsquizzical ...

1. Write your username.
2. Write your 2 favourite bands/groups of the moment.
3. Write something you ♥, aka lemme see your heart.
4. Write the name of your favourite person of all time.
5. Write the name of your recent favoured person.
6. Tag 6 people to do this meme.

Words!

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 03:37:38 GMT

a meme...

Reply to this post by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you. Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

mrsquizzical gave me:
johnny
panic!
theatre
children
film

Johnny - meaning (do I even need to say?) Johnny Depp.
I adore Johnny for so many reasons. He represents almost completely the person I always wanted to be - intelligent, generous, skilled & diverse actor, loving & protective parent & husband. He lives his life in front of us all and he wears it on his skin but it's also so completely his own. He has said that he would kill anyone who threatened his children and I absolutely believe him. He has also said that he loves playing Barbies with his daughter. If that doesn't make you melt into goo and also burn with fierce papa-bear pride then I just don't know about you. He reads extensively, he writes, he makes music, he paints, and he does all of it really well. He is genuinely grateful and humbled by his fans, and he makes time whenever he safely can to say that to them directly. He hugs people and touches them gently and gets protective when other fans are idiots. He has the cutest smile you will ever see on a 46-yr-old man. Or any other man, actually.
My biggest fantasy daydream is to spend an evening visiting with Johnny, Vanessa and the kids, eating and drinking and talking the night away. That would be heaven.

Panic! -
I'm really not sure how to express what Panic! at the Disco mean to me. So... random thoughts....
The music & lyrics of A Fever You Can't Sweat Out has restored my faith in the goodness of teenagers. Shut up, I know, but seriously. I've been known to hate on teenagers, but to think that these boys wrote these pieces of art when they were 16/17 whatever reminds me that people that age can be brilliant and beautiful just as much as they can be self-obsessed idiots.
Also (at first at least :-|) they were a huge symbol (for lack of a better word) for the awesomeness of close longterm friendship. I suspect a lot of that is actually myself (and the fandom in general) putting that onto them whether or not it's actually the case, but that doesn't matter. It's still a real impact.
My two biggest killers with the split are that Ryan and Spencer are not (seemingly) bffs anymore, and that Brendon now has to sing Ryan's words without Ryan being there subconsciously saying "it's okay to reveal me to world". Again, this is me putting ideas onto them rather than actual fact, but hey, why spoil a good story with the facts, as my dad always says.
In general I am just constantly boggled by the talent of all of them. They have, and they are, amazing gifts.
Also, all four of those boys have the best smiles ever. Other than the aforementioned 46-yr-old man. Obviously.

Theatre-
I adore theatre. I don't actually have all that much experience in it really, but I've always loved being on stage for any reason. Sitting on a stage in an empty dimly-lit theatre is where I go when I need a happy place. A theatre and a stage just have this energy that is always there, waiting for you to take it and use it and then take a piece of it with you when you finish. And an empty theatre never really seems empty at all. There are so many people and stories and moments in there always.
That energy I mentioned is very empowering. People are often surprised when I say I'm a wannabe actor, because I'm quite shy. But actors are often shy people, I find. It's that energy combined with the intimate knowledge of your character and your story that is such a good feeling, you have to get it out there. And theatre is so immediate so you feel the appreciation (or lack thereof) straight away so that puts more and different energy all around.
Hmm. I've never described it like that before. There you go.

Children -
My children bring out my very best and my very worst. Which I think is pretty universal. They are amazing to watch and talk with and learn from.
Children, in general, deserve better than what our society offers them. So much crap is thrown into their faces and they are told what to think, what to like, how to categorise the world and how to behave. Right now the biggest and truest ambition I have for my children is that they reach adulthood still authentically themselves.
I dream of a world where no one advertises anything to children, where they make their own games and toys and fun, where they eat real food and where there are no "should"s or "don't"s that don't relate to safety or respect.

Film -
My feelings here are very similar to what I said about theatre. There's technically no audience on a film set for the instantaneous feedback but there are plenty of people reacting nonetheless. And the beauty and awesomeness of film is that you can make a story that can reach millions of people in all sorts of different places and lots of those people will be deeply moved, or amused, or saddened, or shocked... impacted... by what you made exist.
I really want to DO THAT.

Sorry, I really should put pictures of the pretty men when I talk about them, but.... I have a toothache that is making my eyeballs hurt. Time out.

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 05:35:12 GMT

Hi!

Fancy, me making an actual post on livejournal.

Anyway. In the interests of getting me talking... ask me a question! Or two, or lots... ask away, please!

Any subject. Go!

136 (the film list meme)

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 23:13:56 GMT

Taken from shocolate</lj> ......

1. Take this list and post it into your own LJ, and mark the films you've seen.

2. Add five more films to the end of the list.

3. Count how many Xes you have. If you've seen more than 70 films, you are a ~*~ Film Whore ~*~. Post the score of how many movies you've seen in the subject line.

4. Use a LJ-cut since you've got at least one LJ-friend who doesn't really want to see an ungodly number of films snaking its way down the computer monitor.

[] Napoleon Dynamite
[X ] Saw
[ ] White Noise
[ ] White Oleander
[ X] Anger Management
[ X] 50 First Dates
[ ] Jason X
[ X] Scream
[ X] Scream 2
[ ] Scream 3
[ ] Scary Movie
[ ] Scary Movie 2
[ ] Scary Movie 3
[ X] American Pie
[ ] American Pie 2
[ ] American Wedding
[X] Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone
[X] Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
[X] Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
[X] Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
[X] Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
[ ] Resident Evil I
[ ] Resident Evil 2 (aka RE: Apocalypse)
[ ] Resident Evil 3
[ X] The Wedding Singer
[ ] Little Black Book
[ X] The Village
[X] Donnie Darko
[X] Lilo & Stitch
[X] Finding Nemo
[ X] Finding Neverland
[ ] 13 Ghosts
[ X] Signs
[ X] The Grinch
[ ] Texas Chainsaw Massacre (The Original)
[ ] White Chicks
[ ] Butterfly Effect
[ ] Suddenly 30
[ ] I, Robot
[ X] Dodgeball
[ ] Universal Soldier
[] Lemony Snicket's: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
[ ] Along Came A Spider
[X] Deep Impact
[ ] Kingpin
[ ] Never Been Kissed
[X ] Meet The Parents
[X] Meet The Fockers
[ ] Eight Crazy Nights
[ ] A Cinderella Story
[ ] The Terminal
[ ] The Lizzie McGuire Movie
[ ] Passport to Paris
[ X] Dumb & Dumber
[ ] Dumb & Dumberer
[ ] Final Destination
[ ] Final Destination 2
[ ] Halloween (the original!)
[ ] Halloween 2
[ ] Halloween 3
[ ] Halloween 4
[ ] Halloween 5
[ ] H20
[ ] Halloween: the Resurrection
[ ] The Ring
[ ] The Ring 2
[ ] Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
[ ] Practical Magic
[X] Chicago
[X ] Ghost Ship
[ X] From Hell
[ ] Team America: World Police
[ ] Hellboy
[ X] Secret Window
[X] I Am Sam
[ X] The Whole Nine Yards
[X] The Day After Tomorrow
[ ] Child's Play
[ ] Bride of Chucky
[ X] Ten Things I Hate About You
[ ] Just Married
[ ] Gothika
[ ] A Nightmare on Elm Street
[ ] Sixteen Candles
[ ] Bad Boys 2
[ ] Joy Ride
[X ] Seven
[X ] Oceans Eleven
[X ] Oceans Twelve
[ ] Oceans Thirteen
[ ] Identity
[ ] Lone Star
[ ] Bedazzled
[ ] Predator
[ ] Predator II
[X] Independence Day
[ ] Cujo
[ ] A Bronx Tale
[ ] Darkness Falls
[ ] Christine
[X] ET
[ ] Children of the Corn
[ ] My Boss' Daughter
[] Maid in Manhattan
[ ] Frailty
[ ] Best Bet
[ ] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[ ] She's All That
[X] Calendar Girls
[ ] Sideways
[ X] Mars Attacks
[ ] Event Horizon
[ ] Ever After
[X] Forrest Gump
[ ] Big Trouble in Little China
[ X] X-Men
[ X] X-Men 2
[ ] X-Men 3
[ ] Jeepers Creepers
[ ] Jeepers Creepers 2
[X] Catch Me If You Can
[ X] The Others
[ X] Freaky Friday
[ ] Reign of Fire
[X ] Man on Fire
[X] Braveheart
[ ] Cruel Intentions
[ ] The Hot Chick
[ ] Swimfan
[ ] Miracle
[ ] Friday Night Lights
[ ] Old School
[ ] Ray
[X ] The Notebook
[ ] K-Pax
[X] Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
[X] Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
[X] Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
[ ] A Walk to Remember
[ ] Sweet Home Alabama
[X] Moulin Rouge
[ ] Boogeyman
[X ] Hitch
[ ] Back Door Sluts 9
[X ] The Fifth Element
[X] Star Wars episode I - The Phantom Menace
[X] Star Wars episode II - The Attack of the Clones
[X] Star Wars episode III - Revenge of the Sith
[X] Star Wars episode IV - A New Hope
[X] Star Wars episode V - The Empire Strikes Back
[X] Star Wars episode VI - Return of the Jedi
[ ] Troop Beverly Hills
[ ] Swimming with Sharks
[] Trainspotting
[ ] People under the stairs
[ ] Blue Velvet
[X] The Sound of Music
[X] Parent Trap (Haley Mills)
[ ] The Burbs
[ ] SLC Punk
[X ] Meet Joe Black
[ ] Wild Girls
[] A Clockwork Orange
[ ] The Order
[X] Spiderman
[X] Spiderman 2
[] Spiderman 3
[X] Amelie
[X ] Mean Girls
[ ] Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen
[X] Shrek
[X] Shrek 2
[] Shrek 3
[X] The Incredibles
[X ] Collateral
[X ] The Fast & The Furious
[X ] 2 Fast 2 Furious
[ X] The Fast & The Furious: Tokyo Drift
[X ] Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
[X ] Closer
[X ] The Sixth Sense
[ ] Artificial Intelligence
[X] Love Actually
[ ] The Sweetest Thing
[ ] Shutter
[ ] Ella Enchanted
[X ] Princess Diaries 1
[ ] Princess Diaries 2
[ ] The Breakfast Club
[ ] October Sky
[X ] Remember the Titans
[X] Titanic
[ ] Boondock Saints
[X ] American History X
[X ] Fight Club
[X ] Heavenly Creatures
[ ] Stealing Beauty
[ ] Like Water For Chocolate
[ ] Powwow Highway
[X ] Secretary
[ ] But I'm A Cheerleader
[ ] I <3 Huckabees
[ ] Ripley's Game
[ ] Coffee And Cigarettes
[ ] Taxi Driver
[] Silence Of The Lambs
[] The Exorcist
[ ] If Lucy Fell
[ ] Lady Jane
[X] When Harry Met Sally
[X ] Me, Myself & Irene
[ ] Kung Fu Hustle
[ ] Sin City
[X] Labyrinth
[X] Much Ado About Nothing
[ ] The Cowboy Way
[ ] Paulie
[] Blazing Saddles
[] Galaxy Quest
[X ] Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead
[] Citizen Kane
[ ] You Can Count on Me
[X] Young Frankenstein
[X] Raiders of the Lost Ark
[] Starman
[ ] St. Elmos Fire
[X ] Coyote Ugly
[] The Other Sister
[X] Rainman
[] Little Shop of Horrors
[X] Chasing Amy
[ ] House of Sand and Fog
[] Mildred Pierce
[ ] The Big Lebowski
[X ] Mallrats
[ X] Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
[ ] The Goonies
[X ] Starsky & Hutch
[ ] Saved!
[ ] The Upside of Anger
[ ] Sweet Sweetback's Baadasssss Song
[ ] The Cat's Meow
[ ] The Rutles
[ ] Waking Ned Devine
[X] Pirates of the Caribbean
[X] Pirates of the Caribbean 2
[X] Pirates of the Caribbean 3
[] Little Women
[ ] Huck Finn
[X ] National Treasure
[ ] Oh, Brother Where Art Thou?
[ ] Dick
[] Howard the Duck
[ ] Garden State
[ ] Hero
[] This is Spinal Tap
[X ] Almost Famous
[X ] Before Sunrise
[X ] Before Sunset
[X] Troy
[] Gone With The Wind
[X ] Chocolat
[] Gentlemen Prefer Blondes
[ ] Now and Then
[X] Romeo and Juliet
[X ] Ferris Bueller's Day Off
[X] Grease
[X] Guess Who's Coming to Dinner?
[ ] Mr. North
[X] The African Queen
[X] The Wizard of Oz
[ ] Country Girl
[] The Philadelphia Story
[] Bringing Up Baby
[X] The Aviator
[] An Affair to Remember
[] Sabrina
[] It Happened One Night
[] Adam's Rib
[X] Clue
[X] Holiday
[] Arsenic & Old Lace
[] The Apartment
[ ] Once Upon A Time In The West
[ ] DIG!
[ ] Sorority Boys
[] Kiss Me Kate
[ ] Adaptation
[X] Blade Runner
[ ] Kill Bill 1
[ ] Alien vs Predator
[X] Total Recall
[ ] The Shadow
[ ] Birth
[ ] Unbreakable
[ ] Win a Date with Tad Hamilton
[ ] Outrageous Fortune
[] Wimbledon
[X] The Dambusters
[ ] State Fair
[] Shaun of the Dead
[ ] Blue Juice
[ ] Timeline
[X] Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy
[X ] Dark Crystal
[X] The Princess Bride
[X ] Bad Santa
[ ] The Odessa Steps
[X] Roman Holiday
[] The Slipper and The Rose
[ ] Without a Clue
[X] Bridget Jones Diary
[] The Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] The Phantom of the Paradise
[ ] Steamboat Bill Jr
[ ] The Cabinet of Dr Caligari
[ ] Caligula
[ ] Dungeons & Dragons
[] Fantastic Voyage
[] Brazil
[X] The Life of Brian
[ ] Phenomena
[ ] Exorcist III
[ ] The Persecution and Assassination of Jean-Paul Marat as Performed by the Inmates of the Asylum of Charenton Under the Direction of the Marquis de Sade
[ ] Videodrome
[ ] Alice (Svankmajer version)
[ ] Kill Bill Vol. 2
[ ] The Watchmen
[ ] Slumdog Millionaire
[] Wanted
[ ] Silent Hill
[X ] The Count of Monte Cristo
[ ] Three Musketeers
[X ] Shawshank Redemption
[X] Armegeddon
[X] The Lion King
[] The Nightmare Before Christmas
[] Twilight
[ ] Andre
[ ] Step Up
[X] What's Eating Gilbert Grape?
[ ] 27 Dresses
[ ] Broken Arrow
[X] The Day After Tomorrow
[] P.S. I Love You
[ ] The Illusionist
[] Smiling Through
[] Friendly Persuasion
[] The Last of Sheila
[X] About a Boy
[] Cherrybomb
[X] Benny & Joon
[X] Strictly Ballroom
[X] Japanese Story
[x] Dead Man
[X] El Mariachi

I hear it's your birthday...

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 23:28:00 GMT

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY Birthday, koshweasley !

You always make me feel like I'm welcome and liked. Thank you. I hope your biggest birthday gift is to get your work situation sorted out.

*birthday cuddles*

Gigantic Meme

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 04:49:51 GMT

Taken from oncelikeshari .
95 questions aimed at 17-year-old Americans, by the sounds of them.....

1. First thing you wash in the shower? Shoulders
2. What colour is your favourite hoodie? I have one, it's purple and grey stripes.
3. Do you like coffee? I like those very silly flavoured ones with lots of milk and cream and sugar... so.. no, not really.
4. Have you been to the top of the Eiffel Tower? Nope.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? tired, and a bit anxious, and a bit annoyed.
6. What’s the last letter of your crushes names? N, N, Y
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m? Um????
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having: I was in some kind of battle (AS PER USUAL in my dreams!) and I was on a huge ship, in a harbour surrounded by mountains. other ships were following us. Then we were in the bush in a little hideout shack and the bad guy were keeping us there, and one guy did something wrong so he was thrown from a tree onto a long sharp stick. The rest of us were very good after that. Don't remember the ending.
9. Could you eat your favourite food everyday for a month and not get sick of it? I'm sure I have many times.
10. What are you craving? Chocolate, greasy chinese food.

11. Do you floss? no.
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? corned beef and cabbage served by my mum way too often.
13. What is the square root of 361? 19. Google is my best friend.
14. Which British Prime Minister would you most rather kiss? Who's the guy that played the PM in Love Actually? Can't believe I can't remember his name!!!
15. Would you marry the Duke of Westminster for his money? No.
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000? Why on earth.
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? If it's in a cone I lick. On a stick, I bite.
18. Do you use smileys? Yes. :-)
19. How many bedrooms are in your house? 3
20. Have you ever met a celebrity? Yeah but none of the ones I really want to.

21. Do you like cottage cheese? Yes. On toast with cinnamon.
22. What’s the last song you had stuck in your head? "Womaniser"
23. How many countries have you visited? 1
24. Are your parents strict? Not really.
25. Would you go sky diving? At the moment it doesn't really appeal to me, but maybe one day...
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? No, I'd tell his Secret Service person to find me someone more interesting to eat with.
27. Do you prefer loose or cubed sugar? I've never used cubes.
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in? My diamond rings.
29. Put the HP films in the order you like them, least to most... I haven't seen them all. Prisoner of Azkaban was pretty awful though.
30. Do you rent movies? Yes, very often.

31. Who sits in front of you in your maths class? Ah. Memories of over 10 years ago....... Arran Green and Leon Berry. I think.
32. Have you been to the top of the Empire State Building? I have not even been to the country in which it stands.
33. Who is your favourite King of France? Louis. Ha.
34. Would you snog Wellington or Napoleon? No. They'd be a bit smelly wouldn't they?
35. Where are you going to be Saturday night? Right here. Hubby will be away. I will rent movies and eat chocolate.
36. Brown or white eggs? The ones I always get a brown so I guess they must be cheaper.
37. Like rap music? I dunno. I know I really dislike some of it but I"m sure there're some I'd like.
38. Ever taken a train? Are there seriously people who get to be adults who've never been on a train? Really? Wow. Yes, I've taken countless train trips.
39. Experienced the twin towers falling in New York? I wasn't there, no. I was coming home very late from a rehearsal and heard it on the radio. Got home and told hubby to put the news on and sat completely stunned for a while. We all had trouble concentrating on rehearsals the next day.
40. Who is your favourite group of 60s/70s/80s/90s? Beatles/Doors/Queen/Whitlams

41. What day of the week is it? Thursday
42. What was your Lunch? Ham, cheese and beetroot sandwich.
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow? Um. See question 13?
44. Can you swim? In a life-preservning kinda way, yes. In a racing kinda way, no.
45. Can you ice skate? No.
46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? No.
47. So, how about them Yankees? How about them indeed....
48. Which is your favourite Star Wars film? Um..... one of the original ones...
49. Will you actually bother filling out this meme?
50. How old were you when you mislaid your virginity? I did not mislay it, I know exactly where it went... I was 19 and married.

51. Is your hair curly? Nope nope and nope.
52. Last time you cried? During the bushfires, I think.
53. Ever walked into a wall? Yes.
54. Ever milked a cow? Yes. I found it quite difficult, but I reckon now that I'm breastfeeding I'd be better at it. But also more freaked out by it.
55. Have you ever bought anything from PacSun? No because I have no idea what that is.
56. Favourite season? Autumn.
57. Imagine you live to be a little old lady... imagine if Dan had made a pass at you now, 2009 - looking back, would you regret sleeping with him or not sleeping with him, more? I'm pretty sure I would regret sleeping with him.
58. Can you knit? No.
59. Socks? Theyre these things that you put on your feet.....
60. Can you drive? Yes. And ride a motorbike. *sigh* I miss my bike.

61. The next person you’ll hold hands with? one daughter or the other.
62. Do you sleep with the TV on? No. I have trouble sleeping with any noise at all. Colour me very tired, all the time.
63. Have you ever drank alcohol straight from the bottle? Duh. What kind of 15-year-olds remember to buy cups for their first big party?
64. Do you think you’re old? In some contexts, yes. Like still wanting to be a movie star when I grow up. Getting old for that!
65. Are you afraid of the dark? No.
66. Do you like your life right now? Right this second? No. That changes very often.
67. When’s the last time you chose a bath over a shower? Many months ago. To try to settle a crazy-tired baby.
68. Do you knock on wood? Yes.
69. Do you have good vision? No. I have a turned eye, can only focus with one eye at a time, and I need reading glasses.
70. Can you hula hoop? Not very well, but I'm improving. Life with two daughters provides many practice opportunities.

71. Where are your parents? Jeez, I dunno. Dad's probably at work and Mum's probably at the bloody beach again. They're certainly not anywhere near each other!
72. Have you ever kissed in an elevator? No. I'm a chicken about public places like that.
73. What is the next CD you will buy? Q reckons I would love Amanda Palmer, maybe I'll look her up.
74. What brands are you wearing? Target jeans. No idea what else.
75. Have you been to the top of the CN Tower? What / where is that?
76. Have you ever given birth? Yes, three times, by caesarean.
77. Can you handle the truth? I am desperately in want of the truth! Always!
78. What was the most recent thing you bought? Loaf of bread. Why do I always get answer these things on BORING days?.
79. How often do you talk on the phone? about once a day. to hubby.
80. Are you in a complicated relationship? My realtionship with God got complicated when I started wondering if he really existed....

81. Do you hate more than 3 people? I do not hate. I hope I will never have reason to.
82. Have you ever tripped someone? I guess I knock my kids over all the time - they're all the way down there, sometimes I don't see them!
83. When you choose baby names, do you also choose names for stillborn babies? What a dreaful question for a meme.
84. Have you ever seen the Queen of England? Only on the telly.
85. Have you been to the top of the Post Office Tower? What and where?
86. Do you use chap stick? Yes but I forget too often!
87. Are you too forgiving? I like to think I'm pretty forgiving. I don't think it's possible be too forgiving but I think it is possible to be too trusting. I don't think I'm either.
88. Do you own something from Hot Topic? No but I own some things that seem like things Hot Topic would sell.
89. Do you own a gun? *is suburban Australian mum* I think if I ever SAW a gun in real life I would be terrified.
90. Have you made a prank phone call? Yes, when I was about 9. Is your fridge running? HA HA.

91. Have you ever been in a castle? There's a shopping centre near here called Castle Towers...
92. Do you like your hair? Yes, but it's very unhealthy at the moment and needs some attention.
93. Do you like yourself? No, not generally. But I do like the person I'm trying to be.
94. Are you closer to your mother or father? Until the last 6 months or so I would've said Mum. Now I'd say eeehhh I dunno!!! Emotional conflict!
95. Do you chat on AIM often? Never. But I chat to mrsquizzical on YIM nearly every day.

I'm not sure "progress" is the right word...

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 05:39:15 GMT

Copied from bunniewabbit , and kinda hilarious, because I only have one WIP........ but hey, being hilarious and lame never stopped me before...

Post a single sentence extract from each WIP you have (or as many as you want to pick). No context, no explanations. No more than one sentence!

"Very inelegantly, they tumbled on top of Ron and scrambled around urgently. "

random pic: Hey, Mister...

Mon, 02 Mar 2009 04:52:54 GMT

Hello, internets? You are very quiet and boring today!

So, here's a man with a tambourine crown.....

Suits my mood today, the feeling of this pic.

Prayer for a Blueberry Girl

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 06:01:56 GMT

This is lovely.... Neil Gaiman reading his new children's book, Blueberry Girl.

I know at least a couple of you on my flist have daughters....

random pic: muso Johnny

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 03:29:05 GMT

There are so many things about this photo. Most notably, the arms. Mmmmm....

5 things from mrsquizzical

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 11:26:36 GMT

Some random thoughts on the 5 things my darling mrsquizzicalassociates with me... (if anyone else would like to think of 5 things for me to talk about, please do. I can give you 5 things, too, if you like. Comment away!)

1. C-sections and vbacs.
My first daughter's birth was one of the biggest turning-points in my life. I had been desperately excited about giving birth naturally and when it didn't work out, I was shattered. I had a caesarean at 42 weeks for a bunch of "reasons", none of which were very good ones, but to a young first-time mum, the doctors' warnings were very scary. I blamed the doctors, I blamed myself, mostly I was very angry at God, who until then I had totally believed in. When she was 18 months old I finally forgave myself and the doctors, but that feeling of betrayal and of being let down by the people and god I trusted was just so huge.
When daughter #2 ended up as a caesar, too, also at 42 weeks and after 12 hours of labour, it wasn't so bad, because she actually was in danger. It was very very scary and in her case it actually saved her life. It still sucked, but just the knowledge that I had made the decision for the right reasons made it a good thing.
My third bub waited till almost 42 weeks as well. It was definitely the hardest pregnancy, not just physically, but emotionally, with the constant judgement and questioning of my desire to labour again. Never did go into labour, and when bub started getting distressed in there it was another caesar, quick-smart.
I'm not even going to bother defending my desire to birth vaginally after prior caesareans. (and I know that's not what you were asking, Q, I'm just sayin...) It shouldn't even be an issue and it makes me SO SAD that, for most women, it is. There is something seriously wrong with our birthing culture. Women need to stop telling each other how awful and dangerous and painful childbirth is, and start telling each other how strong and powerful they are. And the medical establishment need to stop playing off the fear and remember why they're there... to help when help is needed.
I'm fairly okay, these days, with my body's total failure at childbirth, and I am pretty much just overwhelmingly grateful for my beautiful healthy babies. A friend miscarried recently, and having three crappy births is NOTHING compared to losing a baby, so yeah. I'm good. But I still will always be sad for the mums and babies who miss out on normal healthy births because of doctor's scare-tactics and misinformation.

My gosh that ws a ramble! Sorry!

2. Breastfeeding
Breastfeeding. Well. Is just the most normal thing in the WORLD and there should be so much more of it going on! Cos, really, if everyone was feeding their baby for the recommended two years it would stop people like me getting so many bloody LOOKS and QUESTIONS about it.
Anyway. I am so aware of feeding my small boy right now. Because most likely he will be our last, so I'm just going to feed him forever and ever. You know, over the school fence at lunchtime...
I know I will really miss this when he's done.
And, breastmilk is yummy. ;-)

3. JoHnny Depp
Johnny, oh Johnny. I don't even have words for the beauty of this man. He's a wonderful father (if rather indulgent), a brilliant actor, and a genuinely good guy. He LOVES people, that's what he does. Really, really loves them. When he loves someone or something, he loves them forever and will not let them down. His attitude towards his fans is amazing. He will stop on his way off set, late at night at the end of a 18-hour day, to thank people for supporting him, and to let his "bosses" (as he calls the fans) know that he appreciates them. He will make a total arse of himself in front of paparazzi cameras, because that takes the cameras away from his family, so he gets bad press instead of having his children's photo splashed across trashy magazines.
He has called himself a failed musician, which makes me sad. But he's still a rockstar, I reckon. WHen he performs he's so humble and focussed and IN THE MOMENT. It is beautiful.

And plus, hello?

He's damn sexy.

4. Dragging you to potter and lj and bandom
Ha! You really didn't drag me though, Q, you poked gently and enticingly, and let me follow and my own pace. And I love you for it.
I still remember us discussing the books, me coming from a point of view of everyone I knew thinking they were bad. Honestly I was so relieved when you said those books I'd been reading (about Potter being evil and witchcrafty) were completely missing huge points of the books.
I still remember the first time you mentioned "erotic stories" about Harry Potter characters and I just thought, well, wtf. I can't even remember how I decided to actually read some of them. But I did!
And you BOUGHT me Deathly Hallows when I wasn't going to be able to read it right away! YOU ROCK MY WORLD.

LJ. I still don't know that I fit in here real well, but I'm meeting people, and I love following you around anyway.

Bandom, Oh my god. You. I (and B!!!!!!) will be eternally grateful that you introduced me to Panic at the Disco. I adore them and I'm finding it so amazing to be a fan of a group that's still current! I've never done that before, all the bands I've loved are well dead and gone! And MCR, and FOB... all with handy intitials too! lol.
I'm finding the RPF so very odd. I have officially shrugged my shoulders and stopped trying to analyse my feelings about it. There are just things that make me uncomfortable and I just won't read them. Easy peasy.
And I'm so looking forward to going to a Panic concert with you one day.

which leads to
5. Brendon Urie
Again, I do not have words for how much I adore this man. He is affectionate and loving and amazingly talented. Multi-talented boys just really push my buttons. I don't really know him all that well yet. But really. That smile and those eyes. When he looks out at the crowd and sees them singing and dancing with him, loving the music he's playing, the joy that puts on his face is simply devine.

And, um. SEXY.

Oh, the other thing that pushes my buttons? Boy best-friends being affectionate. LOVING each other. *sigh*

We're all too small...

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 10:30:29 GMT

I was googling myself, as you do, and came across an old blog post with this photo. Hey, it's worth repeating.

Pale Blue Dot. (Earth, from 4 billion miles away)

Sometimes it's nice to remember how teeny tiny we are....

For fans of pretty blonde drummers...

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 04:34:26 GMT

I was watching some Queen clips today, and was reminded of my mrsquizzicaland her love for pretty, talented, muscly-armed, blonde drummer-boys. Yes, I know that Spencer Smith is sunshine-y gorgeous, and Bob Bryar is intriguingly beautiful, but really, Roger Taylor, from Queen, was pretty damn pretty.

I know he's still alive, and still drumming, but I say "was" because, hey, he ain't as spunky as he used to be.

(Okay, I tried to embed these all neatly and it's gone mental. I did my best. You can still watch the pretty...)

Here, watch this video clip and tell me Roger isn't the prettiest thing ever. (Just ignore the sexy girl with the moustache. We can talk about her another time.) </lj-embed>
Not so much singing but better drumming action...

Under Pressure.... more singing.... (I like when drummers sing, can you tell?)

So. Pretty, yes?

Faces come out of the rain....

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 02:30:27 GMT

I just read some Johnny news and several parts of me went tingly all at once:

Apparently, says Nikki Finke, Johnny's agreed to narrate the new (ish) documentary about The Doors, When You're Strange.

Jim Morrison. Johnny Depp. nngnggnnghhh.

Textas! at the Disco

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 04:59:00 GMT

I've mentioned to a few people that my 4-yr-old daughter is almost as obsessed as I am with Panic at the Disco. She asks for a Panic DVD (either Live in Chicago or Live in Denver) at least twice every day. She wants to be a dancing girl like Dusty and Katie when she grows up. She adores Ryan's makeup. She plays her xylophone along with Eric and does an awesome impersonation of Brendon's sideways-rocking dance.

She has named 4 of her textas (markers, whatever you call them) Brendon, Ryan, Spencer and Jon. They are "the panic at the Gisco boys".

Here they are: red is Spencer, purple is Ryan, pink is Jon, and green is Brendon. Today, yellow is guest-starring as Eric.

And, playing: (you have to imagine Spencer's drums in the middle there, that's why he's so far away)

I only realised when I took the photos that they are actually Barbie textas, and how very girly they are. Ha!

a waltz

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 04:43:55 GMT

I was just thinking.... sometimes, when he's playing, Jon Walker looks like he's dancing a waltz, and his bass is his partner.

Thu, 01 May 2008 01:25:41 GMT

Happy Birthday Maple!

I keep meaning to get YIM again so that I can talk more to you and Q again, but my computer is stoopid and I can't get it until it's fixed properly and won't die on me.

Anyway. Hope you have a fabulous day. :)

Sorry, it's that squirmy octopus what does it

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 07:00:15 GMT

I haven't really hired Order of the Phonix. That sounds a bit like a reading lesson for kindergarten kids.

Phoenix. That's the one.

I hate technology

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 06:57:46 GMT

I just wrote a post and wrote out 15 first lines of songs for that meme, and bloody internet explorer DIED! (no, don't tell me how hopeless IE is, tell my stubborn husband!)

So, in short, blah. I listen to lots of Eagles and Queen and Doors and there were a couple of Jamiroquai, Peter Allen, a Frente or two (oh go on, you love them too!) but they were too easy anyway and I aint writing them out again, especially left-handed while breastfeeding a squirmy octopus...

Anyway. I have hired Order of the Phonix and Driving Lessons from the video shop and that is the main reason I came on LJ anyway, to tell you lot that I am catching up with the world,and having a bit of a Rupert moment while my hubby is away (wave to him, MrsQ!). And eating Tim Tams and a cadbury creme egg.

That is all.

Actually making a post....

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 23:25:05 GMT

Fancy that.

MrsQ tagged me... and I could never say no to MrsQ.

a. list seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.

b. tag seven people to do the same.

c. do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".

Gosh, can I think of 7 vaguely interesting things.....

1. The only thing I have craved this pregnancy is extra strong minty toothpaste. I don't actually eat it, but I have made my gums bleed a couple of times from brushing so much. Seriously, brushing my teeth at the moment is kinda way too pleasurable. Can't get enough. Oh, and also eating ice cubes. I'm eating them almost faster than I can freeze them. CRUNCH!

2. My favourite time of day is about 5am. I just love being up in the quiet and stillness, and I like to get outside as early as I can... but I rarely do these days because I don't get enough sleep.

3. My mother was a swimming teacher when I was a kid, but I never learned to swim, except for the few lessons we had for school sports. (I can swim now but not with any proper technique.)

4. Even when I have a small baby, I really don't like talking about baby stuff. Eg sleeping, feeding, milestones etc. Drives me mental.

5. I'm really fussy about clothes washing. I handwash probably about half of my own clothes and lots of the kids' clothes because I just don't trust the washing machine and I have to make sure the stains come out. And if they don't get dried in the sun, they just don't seem as clean.

6. I also quite like washing dishes. We don't have a dishwasher and I don't want one because they make dishes smell funny. I am a bit in love with the new cutlery drainer hubby bought recently. It makes the washin gup look so neat and satisfying.

7. My hubby's a truck driver and I actually really like that he's away a few mights per fortnight. And I think it's great that he's maybe getting a new job that will mean he's away more often. I love him heaps but I love having the house just to me and the kids, and we tend to get along much better when we're not all over each other all the time.

Merry Christmas! and a meme...

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 11:19:23 GMT

Hey all! I do still lurk here a fair bit in case anyone ever wonders where I am... I'm just hanging out, growing a baby and raising two little girls and busy with the all the end-of-year-ness.

Thank you maple for the beautiful Christmas card. I sent one to you but I don't know if it'll get there on time.

Let me just say that I hope you all have an abso-bloomin-lutely super-fantastic wonderriffic blessed Christmas. And if you don't celebrate Christmas then have the same thing only without the Christmas!

And just because my darling q did it, a meme...

how old were you when you first...

* Fell in love?
Oh gosh. I don't know. About 14 I guess.

* Got a MySpace account?
never!

* Got drunk?
15, I think.

* Smoked weed?
Nope. Only the cool kids at school did that and I was never cool enough to be offered any.

* Got French kissed?
12. Eeewww. SO much saliva.

* Went to the hospital for surgery?
21. Like Q, a caesarean. Though I didn't GO to the hospital FOR it. I was there and it happened.

* Got your heart broken badly?
14 maybe.

* Lost a pet?
Oh, about 4 or 5. Just goldfish though, what can ya do.

* Got arrested?
never!

* Smoked a cigarette?
15 I think.

* Broken a bone?
About 9, a fractured wrist.

* Went to a concert?
11. Dire Straits! Yeah!

* Got your own cell/mobile phone?
17.

* Got a speeding ticket?
never!

* Ran away?
nope.

* Snuck out of the house?
not me! I was a Good Kid!

* Pierced other than your ears?
nope again!

* Got a tattoo?
Was supposed to get one a few years ago, so at 22. Still hasn't happened. SO, let's say 27.

* Bought porn?
Nah. Why buy my own when I can read hubby's?

* Totalled a car?
negative.

* Moved out of your parents house?
18

* Had a kid?
21

* Got married?
19

* How old are you now?
26

K?

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 22:38:49 GMT

So, my darling mrsquizzicalgave me K. 10 things I like starting with K.... this is hard...

1. Kids. Mine, especially. They brought my life together and made it mean something and gave it purpose. They made me realise what's important in life, and they gave me the confidence to pursue my dreams.

2. Kangaroos. Because they can't walk backwards. That's nice. Sometimes I wish I could only go forwards...

3. Kindness. Everyone should be more thoughtful and considerate and kind!

4. Kicking. I went to aerobics class last night and we did a whole bunch of kicking. Gee it felt good. Madde me feel all fit and dancer-y.

5. Kaleidoscope. Dontcha think they're cool? There's an ad on telly here at the moment for Bonds new range of underwear called "kaleidoscope". It has a group of women in pretty underwear dancing in circles making kaleidoscope shapes. It's a very cool ad.

6. Keepsake. I have lots of them. From school drama productions, from special events, from special people, from my wedding and dozens of things to do with the girls.

7. Keys. Well, they're pretty handy!

8. Kit-Kat. EVIL chocolate owned by disgusting EVIL Nestle... but oh so yum... *is conflicted*... Doesn't matter now anyway as I've given up chocolate. No more chocolate for me!

9. Knitting. Specifically, my mother's knitting, because I am completely hopeless at it. But I try to learn every now and then, I'll get it one day, and I will make glorious knitty creations for myself and everyone else!

10. Kisses. (Oops, why is the last one I thought of? My poor depreived hubby.) First kisses, especially. It makes me sad that, being happily married and all, I don't get any more "first" kisses. You know the thrill of kissing someone new for the first time? Ah, I miss it. But then, it's replaced with the pleasure of someone who knows exactly how to kiss me properly! :-) So hey, I'll cope.

I guess I'm bored today....

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 06:50:45 GMT

1. The phone rings, who do you want it to be?
Tim Burton. or Robert Rodriguez. Or Johnny Depp. Or Richard Linklater. Or, you know, any professional director would do...

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Yes. Especially at the place where you pay $2 for it.

3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed again, would you?
Always.

4. Do you take compliments well?
Um, I dunno...

5. Do you play Sudoku?
Nope.

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive?
Depends what kind of wilderness it was. The desert? No. A forest? Probably.

7. If your house were on fire, what would be the first thing you would save?
My children. The plan is for me to grab 2-yr-old while Noel grabs 4-yr-old.

8. Who was the last person you slept in the bed with?
Does the baby in my uterus count? Otherwise, 2-yr-old daughter.

9. Who do you text the most?
MrsQ... and that's not very often at all actually...

10. Favorite childrens book?
Peepo by Janet and Allan Ahlberg

11. Eye color?
blue

12. How tall are you?
178cm (5'10")

13. If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?
Yes, but ONLY if I could keep this version too!

14. Any secret admirers?
Millions!

15. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
What's that?

16. Favorite ex..?
Aaaah, the exes....

17. Where was the furthest place you traveled?
A tiny Dong village in the mountains of south-western China.

18. Do you like mustard?
Only mild types.

19. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Yes.

20. Do you miss anyone?
YES!

21. Can you do splits?
Hold on, I'll just try... *clunk* *ouch* *rip* *moan*...

22. What movie do you want to see right now?
Driving Lessons, OOTP, Sweeney Todd (hurry up January!), Before Night Falls,

23. What did you do for New Years Eve?
Went to a party and got hideously, hilariously drunk.

24. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
What? Sounds like a crap movie.

25. Was your mom a cheerleader?
*snort* No! But she was a roller-skater. And a swimmer.

26. Whats the last letter of your middle name?

e

27. Are you Hispanic?
No.

28. Do you like care bears?
I really don't have an opinion.

29. What do you buy at the Movies?
A choc-mint choc-top ice cream. Sometimes popcorn. Often Maltesers.

30. Do you know how to play poker?
I have a very vague, undoubtedly game-losing idea of it.

31. Do you wear your seatbelt?
Of course!

32. What do you wear to sleep?
flanelette pyjamas usually.

33. Anything big ever happen in your CITY?
The 2000 Olympics. The big la-de-dah big-deal-ultra-security APEC conference is here in a couple of weeks. And we have a big bridge.

34. Is your hair straight or curly?
So straight that it's almost impossible to curl it.

35. Is your tongue pierced?
No.

36. Do you like Liver and Onions?
Well I've never tried it. Maybe I would!

37. Do you like funny or serious people better?
Both!

38. Ever been to L.A.?
No, damnit. Take me there!

39. Who is on your mind right now?
Noel (hubby). My baby.

40. Any plans 4 tonight?
eat pasta. watch "The Libertine" or "Blow".

41. What are your favorite songs at the moment?
"It's a Kind of Magic" by Queen. "Silver and Gold" by Neil Young. Goodness I'm a very old 26-year-old.

42. Do you hate chocolate?
What? *boggles at the very concept*

43. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
The other parent.

44. Are you a gullible person?
Yes, if I admire the person who's talking. No, if I don't.

45. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
No. But I have a husband and he does make me happy.

46. If you could have any job what would it be?
Actor, in films.

47. Are you easy to get along with?
Not if I'm completely honest with people - but I can make myself easy to get along with.

48. What is your favorite time of day?
Just before bed, kissing the girls goodnight in bed.

49. Are you generally a happy person?
Um, I'm really not sure. I guess not.

50. Is the glass Half empty or Half full?
it's just WAITING to be filled all the way up!

Meme from my mrsQ

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 13:59:47 GMT

Comment here and I will pick 3 interests of yours listed on your user-info and three icons of yours. Make a post explaining them and asking others to comment for their own.

Here's what mrsquizzicalasked me...

tell me why you have dumbledore as your default. i'm amazed!

Beautiful and generous jocapmade me my Dumbledore and Fawkes icon. I just love to look at it! It's actually more about Fawkes than DUmbledore... or perhaps it's more about the relationship between the two. It's all about growing and changing and learning, then starting all over again.

i never pass up the opportunity to hear about the fairy princesses

Ok, well, Q already knows all about my darling girls but for the rest of you... The fairy princess is my four-year-old. There is also the two-year-old (the one who hurt her tooth yesterday). Miss Four is my little sunflower; bright and bold and craving attention. She doesn't care what anyone thinks, she knows what she needs and she's searching for her place in the sun. Miss Two is my little bear cub, sticking close to Mumma. She loves to snuggle and she communicates with me on this magical, amazingly deep level of my heart.

and tell me about the 'johnny namaste' icon. (there's the opportunity to rave about him, ok?)

"Namaste" is a beautiful gesture that we really should see more of. It represents an acknowledgement of a person's spirit, and it means hello, thank you, respect, connection and welcome, and probably more that I can't put into words.
The things I admire most about Johnny, other than his acting skills, are his respect, generosity, gratitude, and love towards the colleagues and fans who support him. All those things are present in his namaste, and I love that he does it so frequently, particularly in places where it is too busy or noisy to talk to anyone properly. He makes such an effort to acknowledge and touch the lives of the people who support him and I think that makes him a very special person.

for the interests - since i've already covered johnny *snort* i want you to blab about acting,

In year three in primary school I performed the "Skipping Rope Hornpipe", as the Sailor's Wife, in a class play. This entailed wearing a fat suit and a huge red dress, and singing while eating a chocolate bar and skipping rope.
I was hooked. I knew from that moment that I wanted to act. I started acting classes as soon as I could and was lucky enough to find two wonderful teachers who were classically trained at RADA in England, and who impressed into my young mind some of the crucial truths and skills of acting. As I grew up I saw as many live performances as I could and I have always been completely in love with the way an actor can draw you in, tell a story, make you feel something you've never felt before.
A stage, even an empty stage in an empty theatre, is one of my favourite places in the world. And as I get a bit more film experience, film sets are getting up there in that "favourite places" list too.
I love exploring emotion and truth and perspective. I love to think about what another person, a character, would think/feel/do/say in whatever situation.
I see great films and I just want to be a part of that. I want to be a part of making people feel something. I want to make people think about other stories, other lives, other perspectives. I want to make people laugh and cry and gasp and smile.
I want to bring to life people that can only live through me (my, that sounds strangely religious!) and let people get to know them. Part of me wants to hide behind someone else's writing and someone else's life, because that's easier than showing myself.

gardening

Ok, well, currently, I have a pumpkin plant that is totally taking over the world, starting from my backyard. It's not fruiting, though. I dunno. I'm certainly no expert gardener, but there really is something wonderful about digging in the ground and helping things grow, and eating lovely fresh things from your own garden. I like wild, overgrown cottage garden type gardens, and I love to have nice big bushy things like lavender and daisies. Someday when we have a nice big property I wil have a gorgeous big garden like Jamie Oliver's.

and i'm pathetic enough to want to hear you talk about harry potter. *grins*

Oh man, what do I say about Harry Potter to you lot?
I very much admire Rowling's writing. It's a huge concept that had so much planning and thinking and plotting and apart from all that, beautiful characters. And although I sometimes think Harry is (don't shoot me!) a bit too "typical child hero", it works anyway and I love him, and I love that he's an emotional person and that the books are more about emotion than action.
I love Dumbledore with all my heart, because I really want a Dumbledore of my own.

*yawn* I'm too tired to write anymore now, my eyes keep closing without my permission.

'night.